Wednesday, November 6, 2019

New Life

I find the world today through eyes of my own. This simple truth is all that I own. It is all that I am, all that I will be and all I have been.  

Time stops, as it begins. In the game I've played, the loser wins. 

My castle walls, pushed from within, fall and reveal my cardinal sin. A beauty I knew, but fought to forget, something proving I could be happy yet. Without change, without answers, that I'd be my rhythm's dancer. 

Experience the world but keep in your thoughts,  the person you are instead of the one you "ought".


Saturday, February 2, 2019

Gentle Horizon

There is no glory in victory in the battle with the self. No trumpets, or fanfare. Silence hangs in the air like ice on the deck of a boat - a boat littered with parts of you that had to be removed. Growths that constrained you, nearly consumed you, limitations of your own creation. And as you, the sole survivor, sit on the deck of that ship at dawn you feel a gentle light creep over the horizon, touching your face as if bringing color to a statue. You gaze at it knowingly, stoic. And then you get up, and you keep rowing. Because there is no break, there never will be. Not until you're dead. So keep those eyes locked dead ahead and go. through. the. motions. Move into resistance, do what you know you should do, and when you reach calm waters you will be strong. Don't bother thinking, you already know what to do. The mind fears progress as much as regress, as change is change.

So remember that you will die, and that the ultimate change is real, it's guaranteed. Make peace with it now, and count down from 5.

Monday, January 21, 2019

Compass

Ground zero. I sit, looking at the sky, with the wiry tops of the trees around me forming a border in my vision. I imagine a hawk, circling me as I sit on the desert rocks, the wind occasionally whipping across the exposed surface. The sun rides overhead, hovering there as if expecting an answer. I give none.

From this point I can see all around me. Hundreds of miles pour into the distance like waterfalls of stone. I yearn to move with them, cascade with them, but my eyes cannot discern the direction of my path. As I squint I struggle against, but then let myself drift into a current. With my eyes shut I feel a pull of my body and my soul, like a feather taken by the wind that dances against my skin. For now I align, with the truth that resides within.

The answer we seek cannot be found, no matter how long or how far our eyes dart around. To uncover it with thought would simply imply, that it came from a choice, with a reason why. We don't choose who we are and may never know why, so I choose to follow my compass and see where it leads, before I become dust and die.

The desert plants crumple under my feet, I feel my form moving under the sun's noon heat. A shape, a shadow, yet far more real, and far less hollow. No thought could contend with the silence that follows, consumed by the movement, the hunger I've borrowed. I become a symbol, a rider in the sky. This compass points me to something eternal, something that cannot die.